Thursday, November 27, 2008


Part one.

Here is a little list of the things I am thankful for!

My Family & Friends.
Justin & Landon.
The Military and all who put their lives on the line everyday.

Part two. My family may not want to read this.

These are the struggles I am facing today.

I would say that being away from Justin isn't the easiest thing in the world as I'm sure all of you would agree. But the Holidays seem to be the one time I really wish he was home. I wish I could skip the Holidays all together this year and just get them over with, but I have to remember why these days are so special.

Last night while laying in bed I couldn't sleep. It was 11:00 here so that means 8:00 back home, I decided that I needed to call and talk to my niece. I have been told that she has been having problems in school and isn't dealing with the fact that after being in their new house for two months that they are moving again. My niece and nephew lost their mother two years ago to cancer....she was my best friend and the best sister anyone could ever have asked for. The cancer consumed their lives for two very long years before it took her life. I will never understand what those two little children have to go through to try to ease their pain. Taylor is now ten and Cole is six, and all they have left are memories of their mom. They love when I call them and tell them all of things we do over here and they love hearing about where their Uncle Justin has been. As much as I love those kids for some reason talking to them breaks my heart....maybe its because I see so much of her in them.

I miss my sister so much that it hurts. Life shouldn't always turn out like this but sometimes it does. I should be able to call her today and tell her once again that I'm thankful that she is my sister, but I can't.

So here I sit today, wishing my husband was home so he could hold me and again this year tell me that its alright to be sad. Sometimes I wonder if the pain will ever ease because I know it will never fully go away.

So please be thankful for your families. Be thankful for health and life. I know I am. And I know my faith in God will one day wash away my pain and leave me with nothing but happy memories. I will patiently wait for that day.