If only Cancer were just a horoscope sign....

I've been debating on talking about this for a while now and since it's too hard for me to talk about in real life, I figured this might be the way to get it all out.

As some of you know, we lost my sister to cancer almost five years ago. It was devastating. We found out and two years later, she was gone. Leaving behind a husband and two little kids.

I was living across the country but was able to make it home in time to see her before she passed and was in the room with her, in my parents home, when she took her last breath.

Years later, my family still has not healed. We ache for our loss. My niece started high school this year and watching her grow and morph into an exact picture of her mother makes my heart hurt for her. She was only eight when she said goodbye to her mom and now is the time she would need her the most.

This story leads to this year. About a month ago my Father had his yearly physical come back abnormal. Levels were high. Things weren't right. A few weeks ago he went in for a biopsy. They confirmed the worst. Once again, our family would battle cancer. On a scale of 1-10 his is a 7. While they didn't give him an expiration date like they did my sister, our faith in cancer healing is slim. The doctors are confident that they can beat this. Surgery will take place in 3 weeks and from there we hope for the best. Surgery will change my parents lives forever. While he might be cancer free, things will be different. You can't just remove a body organ and go on as normal.

I don't know where to go from here. I feel lost. I can't lose another.